EIGHTY SEVEN11.02.2025
sometimes you don’t have enough money to change the lightbulbs in your room, so you spend weeks feeling your way to bed in the dark, but you spend a ridiculous amount of money on takeout because you are tired after spending hours at the a&e and the food turns out to be shit and all you can do is eat cereal and laugh about it. sometimes you cry everyday for weeks and wonder if you are spiralling into a dna altering episode of depression before realising that you forgot to take your vitamins all winter, and one week of supplements is all you need to feel fine again. sometimes your nails break because you work a coffee machine all day but you don’t realise it until you are sitting in front of someone important and a wave of anxiety hits you, and your entire identity crumbles under the weight of it and on the way back home you realise that most of the people you know bite their nail, so that it’s always trimmed and that life really becomes so much easier when you decide for it to be and it is okay to feel this bone-deep exhaustion because that could also mean you are through the thick of it.
sometimes you don’t have enough money to change the lightbulbs in your room, so you spend weeks feeling your way to bed in the dark, but you spend a ridiculous amount of money on takeout because you are tired after spending hours at the a&e and the food turns out to be shit and all you can do is eat cereal and laugh about it. sometimes you cry everyday for weeks and wonder if you are spiralling into a dna altering episode of depression before realising that you forgot to take your vitamins all winter, and one week of supplements is all you need to feel fine again. sometimes your nails break because you work a coffee machine all day but you don’t realise it until you are sitting in front of someone important and a wave of anxiety hits you, and your entire identity crumbles under the weight of it and on the way back home you realise that most of the people you know bite their nail, so that it’s always trimmed and that life really becomes so much easier when you decide for it to be and it is okay to feel this bone-deep exhaustion because that could also mean you are through the thick of it.