EIGHTY SIX28.09.2024
my life is a series of rituals and cycles, if i am being honest. the thing is if my body has taken so much effort to memorize the motions of doing something, means that i am creating worship, means that my mind is surrendered to the process of doing, means i am pouring love and effort into something and then i am doing it again and again and again and i care enough to do it in a certain way to be able to feel the things i do, in my heart, means that i am working through life in a constant state of reflection, means i worship myself. is being compulsive really a bad thing? is it really control or can compulsion be allowed to flow into something akin to surrender?
my life is a series of rituals and cycles, if i am being honest. the thing is if my body has taken so much effort to memorize the motions of doing something, means that i am creating worship, means that my mind is surrendered to the process of doing, means i am pouring love and effort into something and then i am doing it again and again and again and i care enough to do it in a certain way to be able to feel the things i do, in my heart, means that i am working through life in a constant state of reflection, means i worship myself. is being compulsive really a bad thing? is it really control or can compulsion be allowed to flow into something akin to surrender?