SIXTY FIVE07.07.2022
i don’t want to be anything other than i am right now, but how? i remember seeing the sun, but that shit is not real, the first time i heard the sound of her voice, i jumped out of my skin, it has all been inside my head, i am delusional to the point of bliss, but what am i even delusional about, i mean if it is in my head then it is real right? if i could jump out of my skin like that, i am pretty sure i might be able to catch a thought or two, see if it is really real or, i mean when this gets narrated inside my head, is it my voice? is it mine? don’t feel like it. i am delusional to the point of reality, sometimes, to the point of truth, revelation, i am running after things that i want to believe in, i don’t trust nobody. i am delusional to the point of absolute emotional recluse. i jumped out of my head and sank into myself again, if i talk about it out loud, all of my words shatter, the sound drops, my skin tightens around me like light. i am delusional to the point of thought.
i don’t want to be anything other than i am right now, but how? i remember seeing the sun, but that shit is not real, the first time i heard the sound of her voice, i jumped out of my skin, it has all been inside my head, i am delusional to the point of bliss, but what am i even delusional about, i mean if it is in my head then it is real right? if i could jump out of my skin like that, i am pretty sure i might be able to catch a thought or two, see if it is really real or, i mean when this gets narrated inside my head, is it my voice? is it mine? don’t feel like it. i am delusional to the point of reality, sometimes, to the point of truth, revelation, i am running after things that i want to believe in, i don’t trust nobody. i am delusional to the point of absolute emotional recluse. i jumped out of my head and sank into myself again, if i talk about it out loud, all of my words shatter, the sound drops, my skin tightens around me like light. i am delusional to the point of thought.