SIXTY FOUR01.07.2022
i have been so many things and i will be so many things too, things? people, people? things. i will be a lot of things, contradicting, accentuating, i don't know, it's a progression right, to evolve, no, to shapeshift, to grow, much more empowering to say that, to have been, to be and to become, all at the same time, all in the same moment, and constantly. okay that is existing, is it every moment? how is that possible, then it becomes rudimentary right, no how is that possible, every breath you take is pushing you into someone else, a different being than you? when does it end then, what is the culmination, how do you know if you have got to some place concrete, like a milestone, are there any? can this be measured, how? how is it that suddenly you stumble upon moments of realization then, what pushes you into that, what makes you aware. all of it feels really meaningless right, if it is just happening all the time, so exhausting too, somehow every second, you are changing, wow, fucking exhausting. can't catch a break, then you are dead essentially, right? i am going through growth but i fail to understand it, i realize it and acknowledge it but then i am already a step behind in doing so, because my whole being has already, is already moving on to becoming something else.
i have been so many things and i will be so many things too, things? people, people? things. i will be a lot of things, contradicting, accentuating, i don't know, it's a progression right, to evolve, no, to shapeshift, to grow, much more empowering to say that, to have been, to be and to become, all at the same time, all in the same moment, and constantly. okay that is existing, is it every moment? how is that possible, then it becomes rudimentary right, no how is that possible, every breath you take is pushing you into someone else, a different being than you? when does it end then, what is the culmination, how do you know if you have got to some place concrete, like a milestone, are there any? can this be measured, how? how is it that suddenly you stumble upon moments of realization then, what pushes you into that, what makes you aware. all of it feels really meaningless right, if it is just happening all the time, so exhausting too, somehow every second, you are changing, wow, fucking exhausting. can't catch a break, then you are dead essentially, right? i am going through growth but i fail to understand it, i realize it and acknowledge it but then i am already a step behind in doing so, because my whole being has already, is already moving on to becoming something else.